Wednesday, April 24, 2019

The Next Right Thing


The Next Right Thing. 

You might have heard of it.  Emily P. Freeman has released a book called The Next Right Thing 

She also has a podcast with the same title. 

I've listened to several episodes of her podcast. I’m eager to read the book because it speaks to me right now.

Have you ever been paralyzed by a decision? You want to do something, but it seems too overwhelming. Or you don’t want to make the wrong decision. That’s where I’ve lived for months.

My heart feels best when I am writing. I’ve recently looked back on things I’ve written and thought, I forgot how good the hard of that writing was. 

Yet, I’m stuck. Shall I start a new blog or continue with my Running My Race of Breast Cancer blog?
Isn’t my life so much more than my race of breast cancer? Since I no longer see an oncologist, I should move on with my writing, too. 

Simple, right?

Here is how this simple decision is bogged down in my indecision:

Shall I use Blogspot or Wordpress  for a free blog service or pay for my own URL?

How do I design it?

What do I call it?

What's the best way to end this blog?

Shall I end it or what's better?

I need to research all my options and then decide.

And, there sits my empty notebook. I’m not writing and I’m not researching because I’m stuck. What comes first?

Well, do the next right thing. I’ll sit at my computer and write. That is the next right thing for me. I’ll sit for thirty minutes and write.

Once I know what I want to say, I’ll go to the next step.

My part-time job at the library is the easiest part of my day. I come into work and check my schedule. At 3 p.m. I might be scheduled at the customer service desk. My priority is customer service, but in the downtime,  I check email or work on other tasks. Then at 4 p.m. I switch to another position. Maybe it’s float. This is the hour I can check in on my displays, shelve DVDs, tidy up the children’s area, all while keeping an eye on when I am needed for customer service back up. Every once in a while I am unassigned and I need to find things to do. I use the time to search for missing items from a list, or help out with returns or shelving holds, perhaps work on a display I am creating. When the hour is up, I am on to the next spot.  My day flies by in hour increments.

At home, I see a wide space of time. When Ben leaves for school around 7:10, I’m usually sitting in a chair in our living room, finishing up my bible reading (I’m reading through the bible chronologically this year), do my bible study lesson, pray, and often get caught up on social media. Before I know it, it’s 8:30.

I’ll jump up and eat breakfast. Think of the errands I have. Decide when to fit in my walk or workout. 

Do I have time to read this morning? What needs cleaning and organizing? I feel like not doing anything, and more time is wasted.

Since working part time, trying to keep up on household things and volunteer projects combined with not managing my days well, my writing has fallen low on my priority. The tasks I see cry out for my attention over the invisible. The creative. 

Yet, what if I was really meant to be writing?

So today,  I am doing the next right thing.

I’m sitting here at my laptop. I’m writing. I’m making plans for a new blog. I told myself I can do this for thirty minutes.

And I have.

Nothing earth shaking, but it was the next right thing.

Now I’ll hit publish on this page. Head out for a walk and then get ready for work.

Today I wrote. Not a lot, yet more than I was doing.

It was the next right thing. Thanks, Emily.  I don’t have to do everything, just the next right thing. Then the next.  

Tell me in comments if you, too, feel paralyzed with indecision. How do you overcome it? 

Thursday, August 16, 2018

They Are Yours

After my alarm woke me up, I picked up my phone, a bad habit I use to spend extra moments in bed. That's how I discovered a young mom suddenly died. Her name was Wynter Pitts, a  mom of four girls. One of those girls was the daughter in the movie, War Room.


She was cousin to Priscilla Shirer, one of my favorite bible study teachers. I heard her on podcasts. She loved God and her family and wrote for young girls.

It was utterly unexpected. One moment she is doing normal mom things, and the next she is in the presence of Jesus.

I don't know the details of what happened, but what I understand is she passed away in her sleep. Sudden loss. Profound pain.

I searched her Instagram account for any other information. All over, she has hashtags, #sayyestoGod.

Say yes to God even if we don't understand. Say yes to God even in the biggest hurt and confusion. Say yes to God because we know He is a big God.

Her other hashtag she used often was  #sheisyours. Her ministry was to point young girls to God. She had four beautiful girls and she gave them back to God. Her death was unexpected and swift, but if she had warning, she would have given her fears of leaving her girls behind at God's feet. They are His, first and foremost.

When I was first diagnosed with cancer, my concern for my kids was my deepest fear. I knew where I was going if I died, but who would be their mom?

I never will understand God taking away a mom from her kids. Sometimes, with our hardest questions, we won't know the why, but we can look for the who God says He is in the midst. He is Father. Comforter. Provider. Immanuel God, God with us in the middle of the pain.

Today. We aren't guaranteed tomorrow. I spent today with Ben. We went to Bellevue to watch a couple of friends  perform in a play. We stopped during the long commute home in rush hour for pizza. I love building in this memory.  He'll be a junior next year. That means in a minute he'll be a senior. And then, well you all know how fast these high school days go.

I've already dropped off Becca for her second year in college. Walt had to stay back to help Nathan with orientation at the UW. Even though it was just the two of us, it was so much easier than last year. Three bags from home, a trip to the storage unit, a parking spot right in front of her dorm because hardly anyone else was moving in at the time. She had leadership meetings during the day, so we shopped at night. I got to hang out with my cousin who offered her home for me to stay, visited my dad, and spent time in one of the coolest libraries around, located in Old Town Scottsdale.

The goodbye was easier, too. She is where she is supposed to be. Becca's absence here feels normal. Of course we miss her, but we are excited to see what God has in store for her this year.

Nathan has about a month left before we move him to the UW. Last night I talked him into taking a walk with me. No expectations to clean anything or follow up on something or finish his thank you cards. We just walked and chatted. The sun, because of the smoke from the wildfires in Canada, was a unique shade of red as it lowered itself for the evening, and the cool breezes blew away the heat of the day. It was the perfect ending to a summer day, as I count down our time with him at home.

These are the things that are important. Today with my people. Feeding into my kids when I have a chance. Breathing in deeply, trusting God with my expectations.

#theyareyours

#bigGod